i used to be exactly the same…thinking about being skinny so much isn’t healthy. the more you think about it, the more you feel you can’t live up to it. you start setting unrealistic goals for yourself that you can’t reach and eventually after failing to reach those time and time again, you’ll become more and more depressed. i speak from experience…it’s a very, very dangerous life style to fall into. trust me, you get stuck in your thoughts and in your mind and become so self-obsessed and concerned with every little thing you eat. i know exactly how you feel. you need to stop setting such high goals for yourself because you set yourself up to fail. you need to stop thinking about changing yourself and how great you will be in the future. don’t think about tomorrow, think about today. eat healthy and allow for mistakes. don’t not eat anything cause you can’t live like that, it’s an unsustainable lifestyle. i know it’s hard, it’s very difficult…and the only thing that really changed my mind set was constant determination and time. you need to read this book, it helped change my life….http://www.thegabrielmethod.com/ it helped me understand and taught me how to treat my body. i hope this helps. just eat as much healthy food as you can and exercise as often as you can and allow for the odd sweet thing here and there.